Controlling Anger

I'm 35 yrs old with a happy family of husband and 2 kids. I'm an engg. graduate basically but a housewife at present. My problem is that I'm unable to enjoy life and always feel worthless. My routine starts with sending my daughter aged 5 to school and other household work and taking care of my son aged 3. My huaband works in a private MNC in marketing division and is out for more than 15 days a month. I don't have anybody to share or pour in my emotions and seek advice though I have so many friends for count. I fear disclosing myself to my near ones fearing insulted or degraded. Now a days, I'm getting irritated and agitated for every petty issue and that results in spanking and verbal abuse of my children. Actually,I'm an extrovert and always like to be with peaple or partying and communicating with people is one of my favourite hobbies. I always plan my day but not even 50% of it is implemented. I'm in a fix to prioritise my programmes or things to do in the list and end in a chaos.I'm very short-tempered and get agitated when things do not get done in the stipulated time or if kids or husband do not listen to me. I listen to him and do what he says and expect the same from him.I always regret for my mistakes but never able to control not doing them again. My kids are becoming victims of my emotional down trend at times which is making my life miserable internally. My husband loves me the most and he is also unable to assess the situation. I have the freedom to discuss with him anything under the sky but I don't ,fearing that he may not love or value me properly. I believe in God more than anybody and always tell him my problems and seek a solutions which I get in different ways. I'm unable to meditate or do yoga as I have a poor concentration. I don't have concentration even for a few minutes while praying. I always think of what to do next just before completing one task and never feel contended with what has been completed. I never feel satisfied intead get compromised. I read about your website in a news paper and thought this is the place God has given me to seek solutions for my inside person. I trust you more than myself and hope your reply at the earliest makes my life worth atleast from now . Please write to me immediately.

- A.Indira

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